When I came into class yesterday, I was excited to use my hands, get dirty and be creative and loose. After a week of writing midterm papers, all I wanted to do was let myself be free and not think. When we received the clay I was very much looking forward to getting my hands dirty and being creative. To my surprise, however, I found the material incredibly uncomfortable and irritating to work with. I was looking for something unstructured and messy, but the clay was just too unstructured and messy to be enjoyable for me. I ended up playing around with the clay in my hands for almost the whole time, resisting making anything out of it. Then as I was moving it around in my hands, I noticed the shape of a mouth. I decided to make big, pouty lips out of the clay. When I looked back at what I created I found my choice interesting because as I was playing with the clay, it kept reminding me of unappealing body parts and bodily functions. It was interesting to me that after these associations, I decided to create pouty, beautiful lips. I think I  was unconsciously resiting the unappealing bodily associations by going the opposite rout and creating a highly appealing body part.